Tuesday, June 17, 2008

When the light is green...

A few things really resonated with me during Pastor Joe's sermon on Sunday.  He was talking about plans changing...

When God says STOP, He'll tell you where to go.

This has been a very accurate statement in my life so far.  Whenever I tried to transfer to CBU early, God shut the door.  Not only did He shut the door, he opened new ones (opportunities that I would not have chosen on my own).  One of those opportunities was the music internship at church.  The thought had crossed my mind before, but I refused to let it sink in.  Conduct in front of Gracefull?  Ya, right!  Learn in front of an 85-member choir?  You've got to be kidding me.  Well, obviously, I took it - and even though it was more than challenging at times, it was a great learning experience for me.  Even though I'm still not totally sold on the art of conducting, I probably learned the most from the experience of standing in front of the choir and getting all kinds of critiques.  Who would have thought??  :)

The other thing that jumped out at me while Pastor Joe was talking?

When the light is green - GO.

This statement pretty much speaks for itself.  Seems so simple - yet, easier said than done.  I'm definitely scared about moving down to CBU.  Honestly, I was terrified to accept the internship at church, too.  But two years later, I'm finishing up my internship and am so thankful for all that I have experienced.  And I know I would not have made it through if this weren't where God had intended me to be.  And I know this is the same case with transferring to CBU.  Even though music is the scariest path to me, I know that it is the path God has laid out (for the time being) and that means it's the only path... until He redirects me :)  The light is green... so I'm going!

"And now, compelled by the Spirit, I am going to Jerusalem, not knowing what will happen to me there.  I only know that in every city the Holy Spirit warns me that prison and hardships are facing me.  However, I consider my life worth nothing to me, if only I may finish the race and complete the task the Lord Jesus has given me - the task of testifying to the gospel of God's grace." - Acts 20:22-24

I've been here a thousand times before
Face down on the floor
Wondering how I even reached this place again

But You have shown so endlessly
How Your love pours over me
No picture can re-create the beauty that I see

Show me what it means,
To live my life a sacrifice
If only I would realize
How much it took to pay the price
I know I'd always give
Everything to You

I want this world to always see
Your perfect majesty
Reflecting from my life
This brilliant poetry

Written all over this place
The signs of all creation that You breathed
Words can't even state 
How much You mean to me

I want to face my very crime
Of not giving all of mine
But I can feel the hope
You bring to me

Show me what it means
To live my life a sacrifice
If only I would realize
How much it took to pay the price
I know I'd always give
Everything to You



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